A New Chapter Continued....

   So anyways....After I had it out with Cheri we left to take Nicole and Gabe to Cali. We stayed with Marianne and Bobby and ended up having a really great time. We only stayed a few days and honestly it was so relaxing and refreshing, that it was the perfect amount of time to recharge.
   We get back from Cali and I am no closer to reconciling with my family. I just wanted answers. I wanted to know why I was always treated so differently from my brothers and sister. I had another confrontation with Cheri and again I got no closer to the answers that I need. I would ask a question and all of her responses were     "I don't know", "I don't remember", or "Sian you have pushed us out of your life". I just got more and more frustrated and angry. So again we ended our call not being any closer to understanding each other.
   Months go by and she calls every once in a while to speak with the girls. Anyways I am talking to Nicole one day about just normal stuff and she mentions how Cheri gave Blair this ring and how she was saying how she was going to have the ring redesigned and how Cheri even gave Blair the appraisal info on the ring. That made me stop for a minute because until that point I was not caring at all. Then I asked Nicole if the ring was the diamond and turquoise ring. She said yes and my heart stopped. I immediately started breathing heavy and going into anxiety attack mode. I told her I had to get off the phone and call Cheri.
    So I called Cheri and asked her if she gave Blair that ring and she was like yes. I said how could you do that. Cheri was like oh Blair has asked for that ring forever and I don't care about it, it means nothing to me. I started crying and said, it means something to me! I was there when the ring was being designed and the day you picked it up I even asked you as a 6 year old kid if that ring would be mine one day and you told me yes. All through the years I would say how that ring should be mine as I am the oldest girl and I should be offered the ring first. I also told her that if she wanted it to be fair to divide the ring up between all 4 kids and that would be fine too. She was like that ring meant nothing to me and I screamed at her it meant something to me! It is the fact that I am the oldest daughter, and I made my feelings perfectly clear my entire life, and she has totally disregarded my thoughts and feelings my entire life. It is just another example of how I am treated differently and as if I am of less importance of everyone else. I told her that was the last draw. I cannot and will not be a or let the be a part of my life any longer. They treat me, my husband and my children like second class citizens and I am through with all of them. My entire family has treated me horribly and I am done with all of them. They show me no love, consideration or any familial feelings at all. As of today I have not spoken to her since then. I have no desire to speak with any of them.
    The only person I speak with is Kristan. Who by the way just gave birth to my newest nephew Sean. He is a little cutie! He is Kristan and my brother Dan's first child.
   To be continued...again...